Thursday, December 24, 2015

Merry Christmas

The ringing of distant bells reminds me of a time when I was young. It makes me think of everything I have.
It makes me feel ungrateful. It makes me resentful.
It makes me reflect on these jaded feelings.
I don't deserve most of the things I have.
There's so much more I want to have and experience, but I'm so selfish with the materials and relationships I already have.
I don't deserve the kindness of my companions, or the compassion. The pure generosity of my loved ones.
What have I truly done to earn it?
I feel like I'm just an energy leech. Like as if I'm not really doing the best I can, or working up to my full potential.
It makes me feel guilty.
I wish I could achieve certain things, and I work hard at doing it. I work very hard at it. But with the lack of rewards it always makes me question everything.
Here's to a better year. 2016, please be good to me and everything I care about. Including the friends and family I don't deserve to have.

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Happy Holidays Guys!!

Hey yo!
I did a digital card for the holidays.
I hope you guys have a wonderful December and an awesome 2016.
2015 was full of struggles for me. Trying to find my place with a job, a house, saving money, buying video games, trying to become something on, relationship failures and successes (friends and love alike), confronting emotional trauma, dealing with personal issues, dealing with money issues, family issues, all the things.
I think the dust has settled..
We'll see if 2016 will be awesome. I'm going to work at making it so.

 You guys can save this and print it, if you want.. You have my consent. =)

Alright so as far as the art stuff goes. I haven't touched my list yet.
BUT I have been working on my comic strip series which has taken the name Bear With Me. Kind of like the senior project I worked on.
The comic is about a bear and it always ends with the same panel.
It's definitely a satire on everything going on in my life.
I'll work on some and post 'em up when I can. <3