2nd post because I'm trying to be good about consistency.

Hey guys. I finished up that piece. Here's Notorious K.I.N.G.

Also, here's that cleaned up version of the space cowboy.

Having a hard time coloring things lately. I wish I was a more competent artist with actual skills to make something good.
I honestly have been sitting here working on stuff since I graduated and I think about it all the time. Why do I keep doing this? I'm no good at it. Even if I were to compare myself to others, it's like, why do I keep trying. I know that I should just make art and do what I can, because no one can make things like me. Even if I were to draw Superman, or Batman, my style would make it unique. But WHY should I be doing it?

I guess I'm just feeling like I'm spending a lot of time on something that doesn't do much for me.
I really enjoy having the creative outlet. It does make me feel better when I make something that is up to my expectations. It's just lately I can't line the two things up, my skill and my expectations.

I wish I was renowned enough to just tell people to make shit for me. As if I were the director or something. I feel like I could lead projects and get my ideas out there better if people who could actually execute my ideas for me. I don't know anymore. It's been since 2014 since I graduated. 5 whole years of just trying to make stuff work for me.
The struggles I've been through just trying to keep a damn roof over my head.

I hope that my career works out for me with my current venture.
I don't know what I'd be doing otherwise.

Anyways. I'm going to keep trying because I know you wouldn't want me to give up.

Nightly Numbers for 8/15/2019

Hey all.
Just been working a lot.
Been getting used to my position and getting set with making sure I deliver my best self for the job.
I think I'm going to do my best to make it my actual career. I can't really see myself doing anything else. I'm too much into the customer service / retail / video games to just do something else. I did enjoy working for Costco the time that I did for their online customer service. I was good at that too. I'm happy to be the stores assistant. We're doing so good.
I'm doing good as far as that goes now. Job = good means I = good.
Trying to work on art and stuff still. Having a hard time getting things finished. Able to start good projects and stuff but I can't execute.

 Space cowboy came along pretty well. Just having a hard time coloring him.
Then I was working on some video game stuff.

Having a hard time coming up with the way I want things. Cool robots versus cool Bio/Mutant creatures. I need to nail down the things I like about the bio side. The robot stuff should be easy and funner. I was thinking a lot about things like the Infected Terran from Star Craft, Stukov and things like the G-Virus on Resident evil. I loved how they mutated and how cool they are. So I need to keep messing around with stuff like that.


To get away from not feeling good about my art failures I decided to spend some time working on this.

Notorious K.I.N.G.
Once I get good at coloring it will be up on RedBubble as a T.